Wow! What a hard week. Actually the first week was hard and moved into an even harder week.
Last week I spent all but 2 days on the road. I did a good job of eating healthy and working out. But it was really hard and I still missed a few things here and there.
This week....ugh. I am going to open up my personal life here. I don't really know anyone on here so it makes it a slight bit easier. Last week I started taking an antibiotic for acne...it has some hormone stuff with it too. Well, it showed toward the end of last week and the beginning of this week. I was having some serious anxiety attacks, and generally toward my boyfriend. Well, I didn't know it was the medication that was making me crazy, but I seriously lost control. I became very clingy and pushy and needy and CRAZY. It was so dumb. My boyfriend was trying hard to deal with it but when I started calling him every 30 minutes and texting and emailing obsessively, he grew tired of it. It is a long distance thing, by the way. I don't blame him for losing patience. Anyways. By Tuesday he stopped answering his phone and replying to me and I went down.
Once again, I don't blame him. I was acting terrible and throwing out some ridiculous accusations. I would have walked away too.
Anyways. I lost my appetite and didn't workout. I can't sleep consistently. So pathetic. But it is so hard not to feel so much hurt and regret. And this is how I cope.
Since Tuesday we have exchanged a few emails, but it is still very rocky. And scary. I have stopped taking the medication...and I already feel more in control of my emotions. I ate last night, but still very little appetite.
So...my question...how do you guys deal with stress or high emotional times? Do you eat a lot, nothing? What do you do to get motivated again?
Don't mistake me, I am not in this total depression, just a little slump.
You are not alone! I have been both ways, either eating a ton of crappy stuff like deep fried burritos or not eating anything.
ReplyDeleteFor me getting out and being active helps when i am having a hard time--especially with relationships. Try to get in your 45 minutes a day even if it is just going on a walk to get some fresh air and get moving.
I hope the rest of the week gets better!
Amber, I'm so sorry. I've had crazy side effects from medicine too, stay away from that stuff. And I agree with Bethany, the best thing is to get some exercise. You are the least motivated to do it, but it's when you need it the most. Try to get yourself back into your routine, it helps you feel more normal and in control.
ReplyDeleteAs far as the acne goes, I have struggled with acne since I was 12 and I'm almost 30. And not just a zit here and there but the deep ones that leave scars. Last year I just sort of gave up, thinking I'd just have to try to contain the zits when they did come and that's just how it was. But a woman directed me to acne.org and "the regimen" as they call it and it has totally cleared up my skin. I never ever ever thought I would have clear skin.
They give you a list of the type of regular drug store products to buy, you don't have to buy any of their products. However, when looking for treatment, I would suggest their websites benzoyl peroxide because it is excellent and won't irritate your skin. It took almost 4 months for my skin to clear up. I almost gave up several times but it did. You have to follow the regimen to a T, but it will work.
I hope this week gets better for you! I know that when I'm in a slump if I can just get myself to accomplish one quick, easy goal, like doing the dishes or a load of laundry it can help jump start my day. You can do it!